Batam...

We got desperate. We started to search for a place to go. And we finally managed to book a mini holiday at Batam. It was good. Very good. Nice to be around best friends and not be bothered by things happening around for once. Hotel stay was so-so. First stop upon arriving is the Batam Lover's Bridge. Just like Taiwan, 4 guys on a Lover's bridge. Tsk tsk..




















Tsk tsk...

then some temple visit.. then final stop was at a Batam mall. Guys being guys, we went to a cafe and start ordering food.















Kena robbed...















murderous friends.

Only then we check into our hotel. It was a so-so hotel. But i guess its the company that makes up for it. Mahjong was the call of the day ( Night i mean...). We played and for once, mel did not lose the most. Hahaha.















Bunch of monkeys.

Come day 2. We swam, chit chat, laze arnd whole day long until its time for massage.















Sun-tanning...

Damn, the masseuses might be half our size but they sure have the strength to apply pain to 4 big guys. Our muscles ache like nobody's business that night. Then dinner was a rip-off.















ZZ acting pitiful... he was enjoying it actually..

We took a shuttle bus to somewhere nearby to watch pple light up fireworks. Hehe. It was definitely worth catching the sight of many Singaporeans buying fireworks just to light them up immediately. Nice and beautiful indeed.















Baaaam.... S$40 blow up just like that...

Haha. Anyway, call of the night was Dai Di. Haha.

Good trip and couldn't be possible without everyone there.. Thanks guys, for making this enjoyable.

Eve.

Christmas this year is very weird.. very strange for me. Although I am back home, but I don't feel the festive mood nor the speciality of it today. I spent the eve not doing much and it was a relaxing day tho. Turned down an offer for late night coffee as mum did not want me to go out too late as well. Kinda strange but I normally will go for it. Sigh. Don't wanna write too much la. Merry Christmas everybody!

Hari Raya Haji~

Hari Raya Haji was good. Met up with the guys then we KTV the whole afternoon. So many funny moments. Daniel singing a Jay Chou song in English, and finally watching our beloved Kaimana singing a song after all the KTV sessions in the past. Seems like someone turning pro finally. Haha.















Pic of the boys.. Daniel, ZZ, Mel, NBX, pro-Dave..

Joining the boys..

Dinner was at Chomp Chomp, Serangoon Gardens. Not bad. We ordered a lot of food. And we finally get to meet Shan Bing for dinner. Seems like ZZ already told her a lot abt us. Overall, a good and enjoyable Hari Raya for all of us.

Pics and thoughts.

My gift by Kaimin
















RUBs Christmas Party 07















My best friends.

One of my best friend said something which made me think alot.

"Its like you are stuck in a whirlpool. You took great pain to get out. Then, when the other person came over and pushed you back in, you willingly agreed to be sunk."

I know I am blogging at 5.20am. Mainly cause I am waiting for Yipoh to come to pick me up as I have to send her to airport. Another reason is that I was up thinking of what he said.

Thanks guys! It really helps to have best friends like you all whereby honest opinions and thoughts can be aired freely.

Well, I believe I know what I am doing, but I need you guys to believe me. I would not be worse off than I was compared to that time. That, I promise.

Update finally.

Yes, I am working now. That explains the lack of update.

Mel and ZZ Belated Dinner
Mel and ZZ birthday dinner was good. Very good. Afternoon was mahjong with Mel and ZZ with my mum and dad. All in good fun and really hope more to come really soon~ We had so much to catch up on and if I didn't have to work and if David wasn't that tired, we would had stayed longer to chat.

RUBs Christmas Party
Party was a huge success. We were had a good time having the food and it was well organised by Danny. Got to give him the credits for doing everything and making everything looks o simple. The dance at Yvonne's place was good and no doubt we had fun looking at the presents and got to say I received my third Christmas present. Its a black T-shirt with a word 'PERFORMER' across the chest. Some say suits me well... Haha.

Christmas Presents.
My first present was from grandma. I needed an extra harddisk and she let me choose what I want and so I got mine at SITEX. A Seagate Freeagent 160 GB!

My second present was from my dearest. Christmas tree boxers@!! My god.. She is starting to turn out like mum I believe. Mum started getting us boxers as well but now she had stopped. Thank God! Well,.. like mother like daughter. Very cute indeed~!

Third present from kaimin during the RUBs gift exchange. Although its unwrapped, its a very nice T-shirt. Hehe.

Pics coming up tonite!~~

Looking forward to more events~

Christmas Wish List

*edited as of 18 Dec 07, 3pm*

Made a Christmas wish list recently. Was thinking what I want. Here it is.

1. Samsung D900 Headset. Mine 翠 already. Used too much when I was talking on the bed while in Aussie.

2. A PSP slim. Something which can occupy my time while in Aussie.

3. A series of Stephen Chow movies to occupy my time.

4. Leather Samsung D900 Handphone pouch. Mine breaking liao.

5. A cure.

6. One of the more impt things... A backpack for my studies in Aust next year. Current one is abt 10 years old and had served me well.

A wonderful date.

It had been such a long time since I had so much fun. A date it is. And it was a very bad start from the very beginning. Blame it on the addictive Hong Kong serials. They are way better than Taiwanese and Korean dramas. Anyway, traffic was a bitch. So I ended up being late for an hour. Felt so bad.

It was a good evening. Dinner at a German bar, drinking beer and chit chat all the way til 11. With nowhere to go, the only place we could think of was to go Union for a dance. As we about to approach my car, I figured that why not go ktv instead. Never regret that decision. Hehehe.

Made a reservation for 2 at 1am, drove to Orchard and had coffee for an hour before we begin our singing marathon.

Wonderful. Good old fun~.















The singing session ended at 4am. Then to round off the wonderful evening, I sent her home.

Its been such a long time since we had that much fun and well, hopefully more to come~! Tiring day as I only got home at arnd 5am, but its worth it~! Hehehe.

A change.

You know when it is over when things just don't happen anymore.
You know when it is over when things are no longer the same as they were.

安静

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴 安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多 我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你

I have nothing more to say.

Nice drive.

Yes my sister, your fat brother here had been working out and swimming regularly. Almost on alternate days. Dad's new car is nice to drive. So nice that am tempted to kidnap it back to Gold Coast.

藉口

翻着我们的照片 想念若隐若现
去年的冬天 我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸 对着我说再见
来不及听见 你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我 也许已经很难回头
我知道自己错过 请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我 就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头 我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果 我也能够随
我知道你的痛 是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容 沉默是因为包容
如果要走 请你记得我 如果难过 请你忘了我。

Back!

I came back on tues early morning. Touched down at 5am. Was running arnd the past few days and had been spending alot of time with my family. Had eaten some of the food I wanted to and am still looking forward to a few dinners that was supposed to take place soon.

1. ZZ Belated B'day celebration.
2. Mel Belated B'day celebration.
3. Muscular-macho man wine and dinner.
4. SL's Christmas Party
5. RUB's Christmas Party

In no order of preference I must say.

Spoke to a good friend of mine not long ago, and it just seems that sometimes even a short period of 4 months can change alot. Looking back, can't help but agree. Much has changed and even til now, sometimes it just ain't easy adapting to the new changes. By right, it shouldn't take too long but certain issues are just time-consuming.

Time to stop thinking too much and maybe get off my butt and head to the gym once again.

Nails.

Was out shopping yesterday when I walked past those small stores with bunch of ladies standing around. I was look at the shops nearby when suddenly this short ang moh approached me. She stopped me in my steps and the following conversation took place.

Lady: Hi there, shopping?
Me: er.. yea..
Lady: Got a girlfriend?
Me: Huh?
Lady: Got a minute?
Me: err... yea..

She took my left hand, selected my middle finger and started to file them.

Lady: Let me surprise you. Don't be alarmed.
Me: Oh...

Her mouth went on and on abt some filing products that cost AUD$80. A filing block, hand cream and some lotion which was made from the Dead Sea. Well, the speed she was talking at reminds me alot of the M16 that we fire during NS and it was that fast. After a minute of explaining all the products while she manhandled me hand,...

Lady: Ready to be surprised?
Me: Huh?... I guessed so...

This is what my middle finger looked like after that one minute.















Notice the difference?

Time to flash my middle finger more often. =)

Languages of Love.

Last night the BBQ was fantastic. The food, the drinks, the atmosphere. Invited Eziq and a couple friends and we had a fantastic time. Soon, we came across an interesting topic; "Languages of Love; Touch. Acts of service. Gifts. Words. Time." It got us chatting for the next hour or so and got to say, it does hold certain truth in it. Everyone usually demostrate 2 dominant characteristic traits out of the 5.

Touch
Refers to hugs, holding hands and other intimate stuff. Basically all the physical side of the relationship.

Acts of service
The things that one do for another. Like washing of car, doing dishes,...etc

Gifts
Presents lor. What else.

Words
Be it spoken or written. Words move pple. No one can deny that.

Time
Quality time spent with one another. Time-off taken to accompany one another.

Normally people overlook each other's good points and thus, resulting in a couple fighting, ending a relationship. Tamsin listed one example.

One couple ended their relationship based on both feeling unappreciated all the time. However, when spoken to individually, its easy to see why. The guy is more of the Acts of services and Words kinda guy. The girl is more of the Gifts and Touch. He will do little things like washing her car, sending her to work instead of asking her to drive for her. He will also write nice cards and is good with his words. She, on the other hand, give ties, wine-opener etc. Most of the time, all she wants are hugs, kisses and cuddles. So after much discussion with another friend, they got back together and known to appreciate each other more. And she did mentioned that they are still together.

I guess its kinda true. One tend not to see the 2 common traits that their own partner show and as a result, the relationship might not work. Don't you think?

Over and done with. Facebook.

Yes. Exams are finally over. Now can start packing my room and start putting the things into boxes. Then I would be home soon~!

Anyway, had been hooked onto facebook ever since I joined it. Its way way better than friendster. I love the photos application alot like how you can tag the people in the photos to your friends. And of course, with it comes alot of weird applications like Vampire, Oktoberfest and etc. Applications like Superpoke, Grow a gift, Hatching eggs,... etc are simply addictive. However, such applications are nice to play with and the more you use it, the more stuff you can unlock. However, not everyone seemed to like it. Some people finds it irritating and 无聊 to use the applications and see no point in using the applications to get more 'actions' or gifts to send. Well, I think Facebook is more for people with the time to play with it and although its better than Friendster,, its not as user-friendly. However, privacy is much protected by Facebook as not everyone can see your profile that easily.

Below, a video that beautifully summaries Facebook. Enjoy~!

Shocker Number 2.

This morning, someone added me on msn. I thought it was my cousin who was supposed to add me weeks ago until she said she getting married. Die...

Ben... says:
for a moment i thoutght u were my cousin..
Miss Tay --> Mrs Toh...2.4km--> 13 mins 35 sec says:
wondering if you are back on xx nov
Ben... says:
i am back in 9 days time
Ben... says:
do the maths.
Ben... says:
hehe
Miss Tay --> Mrs Toh...2.4km--> 13 mins 35 sec says:
good good
Ben... says: ?
Miss Tay --> Mrs Toh...2.4km--> 13 mins 35 sec says:
so can we invite you to our wedding dinner?
Ben... says:
haha... Ben... says: sure..


Why is everyone getting married at this time? Don't they know we have to do Christmas shopping as well? Hahaha. Somehow, there's a feeling that my wallet is gonna be alot lighter than expected with so much weddings.

















Last night I tried making my own steak. Rump steak in red-wine mushroom sauce with mash potato and cabbage. Haha. Then, all these with a glass of red wine. Its GOOD~! Farking good! Haha. At least, good food and wine to keep me company for the night.

Wow.

I had this wonderful lunch cooked by a friend of mine. It taste so good that it reminds me so much of the food I miss back home. And to know that he actually saved the last piece of ingredient just for me, I was lucky.















Here is the much anticipated 皮蛋粥.

With mince pork and some 油条. Wow. Delicious~! I should learn how to make that from him. Hehehe. It was an afternoon well-spent and no doubt that we chat alot more and I hope to taste more cooking of his again!~ Besides, I still need to pick up his recipe for Cupcakes and Pecan Pies.

Had my Biochemistry paper this morning. Just hope it did enough to achieve the grade I want as afterall, I know I tried my best. Then this morning when I was doing last minute revision for my paper, I received this msg from a friend of mine.

Fren sent 11/9/2007 1:20 AM:

Hi Ben,

Fren sent 11/9/2007 1:23 AM:

Would like to officially invite you to our wedding dinner on xx/x/08, sunday, and also are you free to be my brother too? Pls inform me if you can. But don't feel obligated if you can't make it. : )

One word.

Wow.

My jaw actually dropped when I saw the msg. It was a big surprise. I thought they were only joking when they brought up the idea of me being part of the 'brothers' 6 months back. To be part of their BIG event, its an honour. To be honest, I never see it coming. Well, first I got to say I am very happy for the both of them. At some point of time, I was rather close to the both of them, and its just amazing how things had turned out!

Can still remember last time when we sit by the ice-cream place and had home-made ice-cream or the wonderful Christmas Party or even the daily lunch break when we used to take the cab out for good food arnd Toa Payoh. Wow, time really flies. Haha. Man~.. where has all the time gone?

In any case, definitely seems like an event worth looking forward to. And it definitely feels good to know you are being thought of even when you are so far away. =)

彩虹。。。

Just want to pop in to say Jay Chou's new album rocks!
Hehe.. got my means of getting it even when I am in Aust~!

Like a particular song - 彩虹.

More updates during the weekend~.

and not forgetting... HAPPY DEEPAVALI~!

Ok. Done now.

Back to my Metabolism and Cholesterol studies.

Over and out~!

2 down... 3 more.

Finally got my 2 most xiong papers over. I can finally breathe. I think I am more happy that its over than be worried about how I did in it. Its like a huge burden is finally lifted off my shoulders and maybe as someone suggested "have chocolate or a good meal tonight" to pamper myself before I cheong for the remaining 3 papers. One coming up this fri then next tues then thurs.

Maybe a proper update again when I have the brains for it. Right now, my brain is fried and am so tired and exhausted to write anything else.

Halloween..~

Amid all the studying, its hard not to notice that Halloween had descended upon us. All the little kids who dressed up, fighting the Commando mosquitoes, going door to door screaming "Tricks or Treats!~" can be heard miles away. I figured that I can have my own Halloween fun as well, except I am not stepping out of my house to feed the blardie insects. With Tamsin's approval, I pasted 2 notes outside the main door.















they had been warned...















the second note... i was nice enough to draw something..

However, no kids seem to take us seriously at all! 3 of us in the house were busy cramming for the exams and our door just kept being knocked on. Tamsin had been opening the door nonstop for the kids and I believed she was thankful when I offered to do the next one. So when I got abit tired of staring at my Anatomy books, I decided to answer the door with this on...















no worries peeps.. its just the mask.. i dun smoke, remember?

Of course this is a mask which belongs to Jason and Tamsin let me use it for the fun of it. Needless to say, the 5 kids at the door screamed and shouted when I answer the door. Didn't know they were not expecting someone like this. Somehow, I think they would had taken more candy if I were not wearing the mask.

Strangely though, kids stop turning up at our door immediately after that. =)

The potent soup.

I never know buffet in Aust is so expensive. A decent one can cost AUD$70 per pax and no guarantee that its a good one. So when told that there is a good one in a grand hotel/resort and it cost only AUD$39, alot of us jumped at the idea. What was meant as a small gathering with only a couple of us turned out to be turnout of 8, with 1 dropping out last minute. Although Matthew had tried it 2 weeks ago and said it was not bad, we were told not to expect too much. However, when we arrived, I can say we were a bunch of hungry lions which looked as if we have not eaten for a couple days. Haha. We swept through plates and plates of fresh oysters, large tiger prawns and cold crab! We were given a bucket to put in the shells and remnants of seafood and yours truly filled 2 buckets on his own! Seafood overdose I believe.

It was a nice dinner with some chit chat and jokes all around the table and sure its fun having this group talking nonsense. After dinner, they wanted to go for coffee. I opted to go back to take out my contact lens first and it was only in the car when I realised how late it really was and had to back out of the after-dinner event. Felt so bad for flying them aeroplane and I did explain to them about it. Reached home, grab a can of Red-bull and drink it to keep myself awake and start studying again. All the way to 3am! WoOt!















the 'small' grp...

Last night was feeling abit adventurous so I took out my ginseng-chicken herbs and start boiling tonic soup for myself. It reads on the packet to boil for 2-3 hours and the effects of it are simply "keeps the mind alert and improves mental strength". I thought why not give it a try since I downed a can of Redbull the night before and it kept me awake for so long. Besides, I do need the extra mental capacity and alertness.

So I boiled it for a max of 3 hours, and was afraid of having a mixture of food might cause the tonic not to work properly, so I had it plain with white rice.















here it is... my ginseng chicken soup.. 4 drumsticks leh..

It taste good and I was relieved. I did not ask anyone over for dinner also cause its my first time trying. BUT the moment I take a small break by sitting on the cushions to catch some tv, I fell asleep! Nabei... What's with the keeping mind alert and increasing mental strength part?!... Bluff people one~! The only mental strength I 'got' was to sleep in front of tv?! Rubbish~...

Think the remaining half of the soup would be used for lunch today and after dinner would be another can of Redbull liao. Basket... gave me hope that its supposed to be strong.. *grumble*

The Dinner. Compliments.

The end of sem dinner was good. Very much loved the company, altho unexpected at the menu change, but still enjoyable. Couldn't believe the amount of laughs my table had with all these constant jokers around. The only thing that was lacking might be wine, but its really an interesting dinner with the extra food we ordered without any alcohol. Unlike last dinner when I shared a bottle of wine with Emi, this dinner has its own merits. The main course was alright but its the side dishes that we ordered that was like the main atraction for us. Things like balance diet, sugar daddy, etc.. seriously cracked me up.















most of the pple from my table...

















clockwise right to left : me, andy, gladys, sonia, tammi and mike















mussels, prawns and bugs were our add-ons while steak was the main.

After the dinner we pretty much meet up in Uni as planned then made the trip down to Jas house for her surprise birthday. Well, at least my arrangements paid off. Was actually considering if I should still go ahead with the plans but on second thought, am not that petty so why not. Cause pple had taken my words out of context so I just let them be la. In any case, below is the picture taken.















pic at Jas house.. the surprise party gang

Came home at arnd 12 to study again. Needed to make up for lost time. Then a friend of mine left me a couple compliments which really made my day~! Got to say that I am rather surprise at the frankness and no doubt got to know the person even better. Thanks again man~!


I believe its only distance that can bring your family closer. Its like last night I was chatting with my brother and that blur sotong really cannot make it. Sigh. Then this morning, sis and I had this private conversation and its just amazing that all these are taking place. Its like we did not much talk when we are together but somehow we talk more when we are apart. Only if this could happen with someone else.

Now with all these talk, its really nice to be updated with their individual lives. Well, back to books.

Little moments that we loved.

To be told that we are the guinea pigs this year is really demoralising. Especially with exams so close and having that told to us by the lecturer just adds to the impact. Basically, we were told that they crammed 4 modules from 3 semester into 2 modules in 1 semester for us. Already had known quite a few people who couldn't take it and had given up but tis really not easy with so much to study. Sigh. I shall persevere.

On a brighter note, I am coming home soon. I actually got bored during a revision lecture that I started listing the food I want to conquer when I get back. Andy thought I was busy jotting down notes but when he saw my paper, he was like "wtf..." Haha...

I came across a post by a celebrity blogger. He talked about 5 little moments which guys see as magical moments that made us wanna fall in love with the ladies all over again. Here it is..

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1 . When they are Putting On Make Up

There's something incredibly mysterious about watching a girl put on make-up.

Maybe it's the level of concentration shining through your face when you're apply the lipstick. Maybe it's how cute you look when you smile at yourself coyly in the mirror, obviously admiring the work you've done.

Or maybe we're secretly thinking that all that effort you're going through, is for us.

2. When You Play With Babies

Almost every guy I know are fascinated watching how their girlfriends behave around babies. This could usually mean one of two things.

Either we are secretly attracted to your maternal instincts because we're thinking this could be how you play with our kids in the future.

Or more likely, we are fantasising putting ourselves in the position of the baby as you hold it close to your lovely bosoms.

3. When We Caught a Whiff Of Your Perfume

4. When You Show Your Sexy Back

5. When You're Fast Asleep

Ask any guy what their favourite moments with their girlfriends are, and half of the guys would reply it's looking at their girlfriends when they are fast asleep.

I gotta agree. Guys love gazing down upon your peacefully sleeping face when you're looking all sweet and serene and vulnerable. Yeah, it makes us feel manly, macho and protective inside.

Even when in reality we're actually quite fat and chubby.

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After reading all these, I do agree, especially to point number 5. To watch the lovely angel fall asleep is more than enough to make us forget the her minus points like, hot temper and silliness that she might have.

Alright, back to books.

Pay check!!!

Yup! I just checked my account yesterday and am kind of happy to see the amount inside increase. 2 days of weekend work and Woohoo~.. haha.. Not gonna spend the money tho. Am saving the money up for some other use. To add to the sum, got a big tip~!.. heheh.

Saw this off a very good friend's blog..

"to be a success in this world, promise everything and deliver nothing - never interrupt your enemy when he is making a mistake"

inspiring?

I gave in...

Just downed 2 self-concocted cocktails to unwind after a long day. Had been having some thoughts lately and having the drinks surely helps quite abit. A good friend of mine had been talking to me for the past few days and no doubt it sure enables us to understand each other even better. However, it sure is troubling when one cannot tell when one is serious but I guess thats the wonder of friendship. Knowing each other for so long and yet still find certain things amusing. I guess Mel and Zz would agree to what I am saying. At this point of time, best not to think too much about it as more important things are at hand.

Dominic sent me a couple songs last time and it is really helping me. Relaxing and calming. My god. The wonders of music therapy~! Although slow romantic bachata songs do that as well but rather not listen to that as they give me the tendency to get up and start dancing. So for the time being, will stick to that few nice ones he sent. Thanks Dominic~!

Well, today is the first time I stayed in Uni til 8pm. It was a mad rush completing 2 online tests and got to say having a few brains working on the same problems is quite a good idea. Overall, did quite well personally and am proud of it. Then later in the morning at 8am, am having another mini test. Sigh, completing so many in less than 24 hours is surely taxing. Just hope that it helps my GPA in general.

Got a call just now when I was having my dinner at 9pm. It was Klein. He was asking if I am free to study with him. I was abit surprised that he actually asked me as that is one brilliant chap who usually prefer to study alone. I just arranged a date to meet him in Uni over the next couple of days and somehow, I do believe that its a compliment to be asked to study together with him. Now am kinda exhausted and my bed is looking at me, softly whispering these words to me..

"Take me..."

Its time I give in...

Cranky mood lately...

Yea, the title says it all. I believe cranky mood + thoughts of the past and coincide with bad timing, do not make a good combination. By any case, spoken to another and it just kinda highlighted a point to me last night. Am just gonna remove it now and would like to clarify that any harm done was not intended. Just hope the person whom I think I offended accidentally might not take it too hard.

Adding on to that, with the fact that am missing out on SISF, sigh... went for the memorable one last year when we broke the Guinness Books of Records for the total number of couples in a reuda circle then partying the night away followed by a mad rush to look for my passport for my trip to Hong Kong the very next day. It was all fun, fun and more fun!

Argh.. slept at 4am and woke up at 6am to send Eziq to the airport. Believe I would be struggling the rest of the day until 5pm when lessons end. Problem is that I totally forgot about it until the minute before I sleep then I realised that I had to wake up 2 hours later to make the half an hour drive.

Hope the steak dinner tonight would be good. Accompanied with it would be the bottle of Club Red. (Mel.. ring any bells?) It was a last minute arrangement and looking at the way things are, seems like gonna be an early night for me.

Dad's Birthday

Today is dad's 44th birthday. I called him earlier today to wish him happy birthday but he told me he was at the doctor;s and would call me back. He did. We had a long conversation about my mum and other things that had been happening back at home. Its like normally we don't talk much but ever since I came here we seem to chat more. I guess its the issue of the distance. When people are near you, you never seem to notice them until they leave. With everything settled and ensuring that am not that mad with my mum cause she is my mum after-all, we talk about other stuff that has been happening.

Just now for dinner, didn't know what got into me. I just cook and cook. It seems as if I never had any idea how much food I was cooking until Andy dropped by to ask for some help regarding the anatomy quiz which I had done earlier this morning. His is tomorrow afternoon. Its just some simple meal to fill a hungry stomach. I had boiled broccoli, fried egg, pork chop and pan-fried butter-garlic dory fillet. He tried abit of the fish and loved it. Now just have to concentrate on my studies.

Not been having the mood to study today. I believe must be the early morning strain in the hospital looking at stink intestines and cadavers.

Anyway, had mentioned to Tamsin that I am moving out and that I would inform Jason later when he comes back. I am giving them more than the required 2 weeks notice and hope nothing will go wrong. I got to admit I love this place, but various factors prompted me to move out. Finance is just part of the reason. This place brings sad memories. Best for a new environment and maybe things might be better in the future.

Pissed.

I just went off to see my aunt earlier in the afternoon. Mainly its to discuss about where and when to move my things over. I am moving out of my current place and would need a place to store my belongings and no way am I paying somewhere close to AUD$1500 just to store my stuff in my current room. Blame it on my current landlord for not agreeing to lower the rent further down. Already I am paying AUD$120 a week and he would only lower it down to AUD$100 for the summer break which I would not be here. Other places charges around AUD$50 a week just to hold the room and it makes no sense for me to hang on to this room while paying such a huge amount.

Our conversation did not start with the moving of stuff, of course. It all started when she told me about what my mum had been telling her. Aunt is unhappy, making me unhappy. Apparently my mum do NOT want me to even go back home. NOT even for this long summer vacation it seems. She seems more concern of the rent amount that would incur if I were to go back. Fact is that I discuss the issue of me moving out with her and dad even before I notify anyone else.

Then the conversation leads to how independent am I. Hey, if you want me to live on my own expenses. Tell me so. Don't tell me its alright in the face about finance issue then go behind my back and tell someone else another story. I am damn pissed. I am not going to write more about this cause this IS the internet for Christ's sake. I just needed a place to write it out to vent frustrations.

Will go back to Singapore to have a good talk with her and to find out what is that she really wants from me. Its not that long til I go back anyway. I just checked and it says 36 days to going home. Meanwhile, should at least try to focus on the more important task at hand for now. Exams in 20 days.

P.S. - May Ee - You are lucky you do not have so much shit happening. Sometimes it really sucks to be me.

Donuts.

I was thinking of writing out a Thank you note to those who had been encouraging for so long. On second thought, I decided against it as i figured that there is no need to do so and write too much here.

A friend who skipped classes to run marathon just came back from Melbourne. She ran 21km in 2 hrs and 11 mins. I will admit first that I cannot do that. Its siao! Asked her to help bring back some souvenirs though...















Krispy Kreme!!!!!!

Haha. A dozen of them!! For the benefit of those in SG, Krispy Kreme is like the branded Donuts. People queue for them and this IS the good stuff! Nothing can beat them, Dunkin Donuts, Donut King and Donut Factory is nothing like Krispy Kreme. They are the BEST~!















And no... You are not seeing double. Its really a box of dozen assorted Donuts!~!~..

They make wonderful snacks.. Although my lab demostrator had told me today that I looked bigger, I DON'T CARE!! Just hope these will cheer me up..

A heart warming phrase.

First and foremost, thanks to all that replied. Am glad to know that it makes sense and at least enable one to think more abt their current relationship(s).

I spoke to May Ee just now. That little girl all alone in Canada as well. Since her connection is really bad, I had to resort to calling her on her phone while looking at her via webcam instead. I got alot of credits in my phone as I seldom had to use it as often as last time. I topped up my credits til quite alot thinking that it would be better for me to call back sometimes but somehow, as a friend told me couple days ago, "Many things can change in 1 month".. and so now I am left with too much credits left unused.

So we chatted for almost an hour just now. A brother-sister chat which can last so long is deemed a miracle when we don't even see much or talk much to one another when we see each other back home. Got to know alot of different things that happened and no doubt we gossip quite abit.

However, when I informed her that I might not see her for a couple years as our summer vacations are at different times, she screamed..

"Kor.. I miss you!"

That phrase. Although its only 4 words long, had a mega huge impact. Its been so long since I heard something like that. As someone told me just now

".. ya its so heart warming when yr loved ones says misses u when hardli see each other..."

How true. Hearing the last 3 words really brighten up my day. Its like am feeling kinda jaded but with that phrase, it really cheered me up. Even friends here knows that it takes quite alot to cheer me up these few weeks but its really amazing how just these 3 words can work wonders.

For once in a long while, I can say that I feel cheerful today.

Trust.

I figured one thing the past few days after my lengthy conversation with Klein. Of course other people did say things that bring a spark to a similar lightbulb. You see,when we talk about trust, as in trusting the person in a relationship especially, its all about whether you want to trust him/her, NOT about whether you can trust him/her.

These are 2 different things. If you WANT to trust the person, you will do it. However, if you do NOT WANT to trust the person, no matter how you try.. there's no way in achieving it. I find it quite distressing whenever I hear the terms "she says she cannot trust me.." or "i cannot trust you..". I mean look,.. there's no way you can trust him if you do not want to in the first place?!

Usually its due to some incident that happened resulting in the loss of it, so both parties have to work together in order to make the relationship last. And not sit on the fat bottom and wait for a miracle to happen. Issues big or small, all can be resolved. There's no such thing such as a problem too difficult to fix.

Sometimes, as human being we tend to miss out on the big picture and focus solely on the small ones. If you say you can no longer trust that person, then think of what can be done to gain it back. For crying out loud, think of the solutions instead of the problems all the time.

I am not sure if I am making much sense here but at least do think about it. Consider wisely before you start throwing the word TRUST around freely. If I am wrong about this, then at least leave a comment to educate everyone here instead. Comments are definitely appreciated.

an understanding..

had a long talk with K..
he told me his story abt H and him..

somehow we came to the same conclusion..
based on wat we had seen our friends been thru and wat we had been through ourselves...
that when it comes to a relationship...

females are heartless by large...
they basically dun care abt ur feelings when announcing they want a break..
and that, compared to guys...
we tend to pay more attention to the girl's feelings and try to soften the impact cause we dun want them to be in a tougher situation than they already are.
while females on the other hand are just plain brutal.
when they feel that they no longer have anymore feelings for the person..
they just asked for a break without blinking an eye..
how much more brutal can it get?

then when guys made an 'emotional' U-turn...
he is back for good...
main reason is that he regrets wat happens and would do anything just for that U-turn...
but the female counterparts are able to do the same turn....
but still make the whole relationship as volatile as it can get~!...

call guys stubborn or wat...
when the whole relationship is failing...
guys would still hang on and fight til the last breathe...
cause if he were to go down..
he rather go down fighting for something which he believes in.
and most of the time..
we got shrugged off as if we are a pest on their shoulders.
girls got it easier of course...
the girls tend to just let go and see if the guy does anything..
we hardly heard of any girl(s) going all out to get the guy back...
not that there are none...
but based on the similar scenario...
i hardly think so...

then when guys are all alone in a foreign country...
we are expected to endure all things...
so when we mentioned that at least the girls got their own emotional support back at home...
or even their frens and familiar surroundings arnd..
they think the guys are mainly acting pitiful...
but fact is that we are NOT in our comfort zone..
who is trying to act pitiful?...
sigh...

and of course...
all this is largely based on the fact that IF the guy loves the girl more...
so pls dun turn arnd and shoot me for generalising all females...

internal struggle..

its been a long enjoyable week...
with mel's visit..
visited to Wet n Wild altho was feeling abit under the weather..
got abit high on the temperature the day before but i think the cold water done its part...
and of course...
the week could always be better..
like only if blardie Spotless will let me know abt the change of location this morning lor...
blardie hell..
then i would not have to rush like mad...
but in any case...
am glad its all over....
and things settled...

argh...
somehow i feel that i had been fighting for something for a long long time..
altho there are occassional times whereby i dun think so...
but sometimes i do feel the drain and i think being tired physically does play a part...
and at such times...
its when just a simple sms or a call to tell u that u are not alone will brighten ur day...
and u can just wait and wait...
and it will never come...

there are many times when u just wanna give it all up..
but u know u can't...
cause of the expectations pple have of u...
there are many times when u just wanna pack ur bags...
but u know u can't...
cause of the impressions pple will have of u...
there are many times when u just wanna keep on drinking...
but u know u can't...
cause of the disappointment u will cause arnd u...

i doubt i am making much sense...
but i do know wat i am feeling....
and am just rambling here watever comes to my mind..

557 km....

The steak dinner was good...
wow..
good reccomendation from jas...
steak juicy..... nice entree... and good wine..
hahaha...
after that we visited Conrad Jupiters where i explained to him some games....
then we popped by Surfers for him to have a look at night life in Gold Coast...

the next day..
we went off to Mt Tamborine...
having sandwiches we made as breakfast...
we arrived there and trekked along one of the few trails..
as wat mel said...
"fresh air... good weather..."















one of the 3 cameras he brought to gold coast.. would u believe this one cost a grand?!















together with the nice, scenic background..















one of the many nice views on top Mt Tamborine....















mel said this pic not nice.. is 'white-washed'... but seems nice to me leh...
one of the flowers at the end of the trail with good view...

at the end of the trail...
we took a VERY nice photo....















The you-jump-i-jump photo...

no prizes for guessing which movie i get that phrase from..

fish and chip for lunch at one of the best seafood place with a VIP...
that person had been sooooo busy lor...
but somehow..
using mel's charm...
we managed to have lunch together...
FINALLY!!















spot the VIP...

then off to Harbourtown to shop...
he bought a couple bags of stuff..
then stoopid zz take so long to reply our sms...
made us soo tired from waiting and walking arnd aimlessly...

went home to shower and change..
then off for Jap dinner..
Shabu shabu....
heheh..
my god..
we had like 5 plates of sliced beef between the 2 of us...
each plate a mountain full...
go with the bottle of red wine we bought from Mt tamborine...
my god..
its soooo good...
















yea...
that was last nite..
then this morning..
we went to the beach again..
to tan... and somemore heart-to-heart chat...
then off back home to washup..
and to the airport liao...

well...
we did some calculations at the airport..
and boy..
time really flies.
haha...
7 weeks more and i would be back..
heheh...

yea..
in total..
my car ran 557km while he was here..
alot man....
even i was surprised....

well...
its like he came over and went back so fast..
time really flies when you are having fun...
i hope he did.. cause i know i did...

Mel arrived...

Linda's birthday dinner was a huge success...
altho my car did act up and refuse to start immediately...
it was all good...















the birthday dinner...

after that was cake cutting then mahjong..
haha.. lost all the way til last game...
max 5 'fan' and won the game..
covered all losses and won some more..
hehehe....
but only sleep at 4am...
cause was online chatting...

Mel came yesterday morning...
saw him at the hotel lobby...
and boy..
gave him a BIG hug~!@...
hehehe...
so being all sleepy with 2 hrs of sleep....
i drove Goldilocks all the way to meet him...

first we walked arnd Brisbane city...
its a rather small city...
after that we went for the Tori Amos meet and greet...
not bad leh..
got to say i am impressed by her in person...
someone who takes care of her fans..
maybe thats why mel is so in love with her...
we took individual pics with her... and boy...
she is really nice...
she asked me if i am here cause of mel..
i said yes...
cause mel wanted me to accompany him..
so i agreed...















pic of her with us...

then we walked arnd somemore..
took some pics..
then i went back to hotel to rest while he enjoyed his concert..
i went for a night swim...
followed by an hour of gym...
wow...
really made myself sooo tired...
then i filled the bath tub with hot water..
who cares if Brisbane having water restrictions...
we paid for hotel anyway...
had this long hot soak that i fell asleep in the tub..
didn't even know mel couldn't open the door and was knocking outside for so long..
hahaha...
well...
the long soak was relaxing and i fell asleep almost immediately after sitting on the bed...

the following day was good..
we explore the Chinatown of Brisbane and walked arnd somemore before driving back to Gold Coast...
upon arriving at my place...
he seems to like it alot... haha.. keep on praising the landscaping... the set up...
hahaha..
brought him to the beach...
he loves it as well..
haha.. altho its a sunday.
it felt like our personal beach...















us.... at our 'own' beach...

going out for steak dinner in awhile...
hehe...
he is showering now...
more updates coming....

It starts...

Finally...
the one-week break starts..
hehe..
just spoke to mel...
cause he is arriving tml morning...
hmm...
hope it would be a good trip for him... hahahaha...

and i received my results for mid-sems..
i got wat i deserved i guess..
barely pass anatomy and physiology... when half failed..
then got over 90% for the biophysics and biochem...
hmm... i guess i should be happy...

anyway...
zz asked me for a few favours...

about my new house-mate....

first was this...

Mr. Moon™ says:
who is chelsea?
Ben... says:
my new housemate
Mr. Moon™ says:
wad STUPID name is tt
Mr. Moon™ says:
u got tell her ur name is arsenal?
Mr. Moon™ says:
then u can intro mel as man u
Ben... says:
no. i rather be man u...
Ben... says:
hahaha...

then this....

Mr. Moon™ says:
don rape mel k?
Mr. Moon™ says:
he is skinny enough
Ben... says:
i scared he rape me lor..
Ben... says:
hahaha
Mr. Moon™ says:
let angmoh rape him
Mr. Moon™ says:
haha
Ben... says:
no.. let chelsea rape him

and enough of raping..... here it is...

Mr. Moon™ says:
intro her to mel
Mr. Moon™ says:
maybe mel likes

then last but not least...

Ben... says:
hahaha. .bring him to strip club
Mr. Moon™ says:
strip the cat
Ben... says:
hahahaha.. make him perform
Mr. Moon™ says:
haha

haha...
wat good fun...

dum dee dum...
good dinner awaits....

i was forgotten...

As i saw eziq at the club today..
he asked me wat time i wanna go back...
cause he wanna give me a lift..
he didn't know i drove..
hahaha...
cause usually he go for class on tues... then wed he just go for social dance..
but he missed class last nite so he went early today...
so i had to make my way to the club myself...

then we both start laughing at an incident a couple weeks back...
when i was too drained to even stay awake...
so he suggested that we leave that place early...
then moment i enter his car..
i start speaking all sorts of nonesense...
so much nonesense that i dun even know wat i said...
to a point whereby i told him to let me sleep while he drives....

i woke up 10 mins later....
in his car...
OUTSIDE HIS HOUSE!!

he then looked at me and said...
"shit bro... i forgot abt you!"

cause normally i would chat with him while he drives me back...
so he would not 'forget' me...
but somehow... that day...
i just lie down on the chair and fell asleep...
he totally forgot that i was even sitting beside him!!...
hahaha...

anyway...
today went to the beach to tan...
hahaha..
not bad...
nice day to sun tan....

i see dead pple... pain-ball 2

woke up at 6am today man...
damn tired...
just to go and examine 4 dead bodies and some body parts...
it was rather weird initially...
cause looking at the cadavers up close...
but it was pretty eerie when u see the toe nails... and the hairs on the toes...
i stayed for the whole 3 hours....
by then... majority of the 50+ pple had already left.. leaving only 10 students and 6 lab instructors..
its the smell of the embalming liquid which they use that really stinks...
seriously not much appetite to eat altho was hungry...
its like the thought of 'them', u lose appetite liao...

anyway..
while at the hospital..
i found 2 additional blue-blacks..
one on my right knee...
damn 'zhun' can...
then another one on the back of my head...

still reeling in pain from pain-ball...

Gun and initial bullets : $53
Additional bullets : $17
Days of painful suffering with 4 blue-blacks : ....priceless


hmm....
next event should be go-karting...
but not sure when it will be...
hope its sometime soon......

Paintball...

As you might had read earlier,...
had paint ball today..
hehehe...
not that bad...
except i got myself a big blue black..
and as someone will describe it...
one major and one minor one...
altho not as bad as Pam's...
her's is as big as a tennis ball.
mine is just a ping pong size..















grp pic... the girls... yes.. ALL girls...















grp pic... the guys..
















my blue-black...its gonna form soon... now its red... soon it will spread...

I just made kick-ass ice lemon tea...
hehehe....
made sooo much that i put some in the fridge for me to enjoy tml....
good drink to stay hydrated... and its damn refreshing....

Hunter became the prey..

5 mins more, I tell myself.

It was a mess. Lying on my stomach right behind a L-shape tyres shelter with my rifle sticking out in between them, I had a good look around. A number of shelters around are visible. Some made of barrels, a few made up of old rubber tyres stacked up nicely just like in F1 Grand Prix.

A sudden movement caught my eye and I switched my aim to the area of movement. Watching the prey slowly making himself comfortable, I take my aim and pulled the trigger. OOuucch!~ He got up and slowly retreated with the shot obviously fired onto his left mask.

2 more was running towards the other side. Immediately, I let out a few shots. Another had his vision blurred by the projectile while the other took 2 on his chest. Heaving a sigh of relieve, I relaxed.

Bad mistake.

The person who was supposed to cover me had gone elsewhere and I was taken down almost immediately from the back. The bullet came and left a huge mark on my left arm.

It was then, I lost the stealth that I thought I had.
It was then, the time to retreat further back to base commenced.
It was then, I felt that pain.
It was then, I was being marked in blue-black.

Although I got hit, but knowing that I got 2 headshots and 2 on another person before I got killed, it was good. I was satisfied.

Paint ball was fun.

fucked up pple...

know something?..
i am fucking pissed...

firstly..
i washed my car today..
hand-washed..
a pail of water and did it with JianHong..
cause both our cars are rather dirty and need some cleaning...
tat was only 3 hrs ago...
now...
fucking weather..
looks like its gonna rain...
kaoz..
wash car = no wash...

now..
i am seriously pissed off..
i was arranging a mahjong session for tonite..
mainly cause..
if u want something...
do it yourself...
dun wait for others to arrange..

all was well..
until someone decided to put words in my mouth..
blardie hell..
all i did said was...
"xxx might be late... cause going Sunny Bank.. and not sure IF will make it back on time.."
look..
i capitalise the word 'IF'...
if dunno the meaning of the word IF..
pls fucking hell go and google it..

knn ccb...
A wanted G to go...
so G come and asked me abt tonite plans..
and i just gave a brief remark of wat i said above..
farking G got to be a blardie big mouth and tell xxx that i said.."xxx will NOT make it on time."

eh..
damn fucked up can..
u are not by any chance younger than me..
so dun act innocent...

besides..
this is not the fucking first time this sort of things happened la..
kena sabo-ed by G...
fucking pissed now...

last time she wanna 'act' innocent...
use me as a scapegoat and sabo la...
some frens caught in the middle told me to let things go...
and dun get involved in some shitty cat-fight...
and of course i did not get involved..
not gonna bring myself to that level...
so i just try not to be bothered by it...

but now this kind things happen..
fucking pissed...
ccb...

Spring is here!!!!

After 3 months of winter..
Spring is finally here...
it had been here for a week..
and its a month late...
much thanks to the 4 months of summer we had here...

hmm...
now got to on the fan when i sleep..
while finding a place to keep my heater..
hmm.... hope it doesn't get too humid...
cause hate summer man....
i love the sun only for sopme reasons...
like after i hang up my laundry.... or when i wanna go to the beach...
other than that..
would pretty much prefer cold cold weather...

at least now we know mel mel's butt would not be freezing la...
light clothes will do...
i dun think winter will return just for mel anyway...

just received a complaint from canada,..
that its damn cold la..
i miss winter already....

hmm... wat u think..

tml fri liao..
somehow... i gonna 'zhao' tutorial..
cause i got no questions for him..
so no point going also...
and that means i am only going uni at 1pm...
better draw out a proper grocery shopping list...
its been growing...
its been almost 3 weeks since i last did some groceries..
yea..
stock up my fridge til 'gao-gao'....

in any case...
am waiting for one more results of the mid semester exams...
sigh...

came across an offer for Tori Amos concert tix today..
sms mel.... asking him details abt his own tickets..
cause if its a better deal one in Uni..
then was thinking of getting both then watch with him while helping him sell his present ticket..
but it turns out that his ticket is even better than the one that i saw...
so i guess...
the cat would watch it alone bah..
besides...
wat do u pple think of watching a concert of someone u barely knew and know not much of her songs?.... and paying $120 for it....
give me ur views...

First!!

Okie..
good riddance of the old blog...
blardie thing...
dun allow comments...
very mafan lor...
still doing the final adjustments of the blog...
hmm..
bear with it for the moment..
til i got time to make things better here..
at least this one can post pics..
heheheh...

meanwhile..
hope can see more comments from now on..

then again..
lets have a moment of silence...
for the 'demise' of the old one...
sigh..
its been great having it serving me...
for the past 7-8 years?
wow...
okie..
moment of silence..








okie..
done..
ON WITH THE NEW BLOG!!!>..
WooHoo!!!

Re-post...

just came back from dinner with sylv and jas...
shyabu shyabu...
not bad..
all u can eat..
but too bad the sashimi was expensive...
its okie cause we all shared the cost tho...

new housemate is slowly getting on my nerves...
all the impromptu running arnd the house...
come on...
its not like we are staying in a huge house..
dun have to run right...
its the noise it creates..
the noice her sandals create...

then as if not noisy enough in the day...
she has to make such noise in her room at nite...
aiyo..
there's a bathroom in between our rooms...
and i could hear her banging here and there...
think she wanna bring the house down literally...
on my way to the toilet then i discovered that she was making a table using her luggage..
*faint*...
Jason and Tamsin are asleep...
surely dun have to do that at that time rite?...

am glad she finally quieten down after my shower..
so at least i can study...
getting pissed off slowly liao...
first her blur-ness... then now these....
hope no more surprises man...

anyway...
2 weeks more and mel mel would be here...
got a strange msn conversation with him just now..

iieee says:
u know wad
iieee says:
sometimes i really feel very lonely in singapore
iieee says:
cos
iieee says:
everyone';s getting attached but me
iieee says:
ben teo, zhi zhong
iieee says:
bing xi
iieee says:
all attached le
Ben... says:
sia la.. miao.... first time u open up so much to me leh..
iieee says:
den no one left
iieee says:
very emo one u know
iieee says:
esp since daniel is sitting next to me
Ben... says:
....
iieee says:
n he keep psycho me say wad must live for a purpose...
iieee says:
to me purpose is to be able to...
iieee says:
i dunno
iieee says:
its something dat cannot be said in a few words
iieee says:
heyz
iieee says:
anyway
iieee says:
pin...
iieee says:
u know wad
iieee says:
its getting boring here
iieee says:
i dun wanna study in library alone all day...
iieee says:
to make things worst
Ben... says:
huh?!
Ben... says:
u in library ah
iieee says:
yeah
Ben... says:
i thot u at home sia
iieee says:
all day
iieee says:
ya lor
iieee says:
toopid daniel force me study w him
Ben... says:
hahahaha...
iieee says:
but dun tell him i say dat
iieee says:
he next to me
iieee says:
jialat stress
Ben... says:
hahaha...
Ben... says:
eh... relax man..
Ben... says:
i joining u wat
iieee says:
ya lor
iieee says:
everyday must study with him
iieee says:
u diff
iieee says:
i only see u on msn
iieee says:
i see his face everydya!
Ben... says:
hahahaha...
iieee says:
everyday leh...
iieee says:
fierce sia

seems like mao mao is getting abit emo nowadays...

until i realised that it was daniel on his laptop...
hahahaha...
basket...

anyway...
there seem to be no more birds calling at night..
rather quiet nowadays..
kinda good actually...
think weather too cold for them to start making so much noise..

other than that..
sigh..
back to studies...
sigh...