internal struggle..

its been a long enjoyable week...
with mel's visit..
visited to Wet n Wild altho was feeling abit under the weather..
got abit high on the temperature the day before but i think the cold water done its part...
and of course...
the week could always be better..
like only if blardie Spotless will let me know abt the change of location this morning lor...
blardie hell..
then i would not have to rush like mad...
but in any case...
am glad its all over....
and things settled...

argh...
somehow i feel that i had been fighting for something for a long long time..
altho there are occassional times whereby i dun think so...
but sometimes i do feel the drain and i think being tired physically does play a part...
and at such times...
its when just a simple sms or a call to tell u that u are not alone will brighten ur day...
and u can just wait and wait...
and it will never come...

there are many times when u just wanna give it all up..
but u know u can't...
cause of the expectations pple have of u...
there are many times when u just wanna pack ur bags...
but u know u can't...
cause of the impressions pple will have of u...
there are many times when u just wanna keep on drinking...
but u know u can't...
cause of the disappointment u will cause arnd u...

i doubt i am making much sense...
but i do know wat i am feeling....
and am just rambling here watever comes to my mind..