发泄。

最近，一直睡不好,
因为有一样事情搞到我非常烦。
通常过的快乐与活波的我，最近心里一直都觉得不好受。
想找个地方发泄，所以就打算写在我的网站，
希望能让自己好受一些。

我非常不喜欢上个礼拜一跟你通电话的那番话。
别人也是人，你没有权力侮辱他。
我和你的关系到了这个地步， 你只能怪自己，不是别人的错。
自己要看开点，不要无赖别人。
到现在，我还是一样，没变。
要变，要换的，是你的想法。

你不是不知道，
我最讨厌别人用不同的手段来控制我的选择， 我的人生。
我已经24岁了。
给我一点尊严，尊重我的选择。
你不喜欢的话，那就别管，
不要干涉我的生活。

我就写到这里。没话好讲了。
希望写出来后，心里会平静下来，
能好好的睡，好好的休息，
让我可以专心的读书，考试。

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Ups and Downs.

I mentioned before that life is always a vicious cycle of ups and downs. Things just keeps happening. Studies, family... etc. Anyway, sparing all details... miss her alot recently... This song had been in my playlist for a few years... and actually inspired me to do things which i never expected myself to..


Adam Sandler- Grow Old With You.

I wanna make you smile whenever youre sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

Ill get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

Ill miss you
Ill kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Ill need you
Ill feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if youve had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you.

Something for you, darling. Love you. *wink*

Studying with candles. Catching up.

Winds faster than 100km/hr was blowing with heavy downpour coming down hard on the Gold Coast on Wed and I had to stupid-ly drive out for petrol in the afternoon. Not realising the seriousness of my actions, I drove past fallen trees on the road, until we stopped at a traffic lights and a tree just fell and smashed 2 cars in front of mine. I was very temped to make a U-turn and go back but decided to go on and get petrol instead. I got really scared. Some traffic lights were down as well. Coming home, I was informed that electricity got cut off. Most probably a fallen trees had hit the wires or something. News that a man had died from flying debris was reported in the news as well.

I had no mood to cook and resorted to cooking instant noodles instead. My 3rd packet this year I think. Thank God for having a gas stove in my kitchen. With the aid of a tall black candle, I ate in darkness.

You know when you watch those old Chinese movies, especially those referring to different dynasties whereby Chinese normal folks had to sit for an exam to be determined a scholar? Yours truly had a feel of how they actually cope with studying at night.















What an experience...

Looking back, it really made me think alot. Well, I really admire those people who strive through the night, studying with just a candle light. I surprised myself that night, in the total darkness, with my vision spared with just that candle, I actually studied for 3 hours. Going to bed at 11, my eyes were tired. And I was productive that night!

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Last night, we had our monthly dinners. The Sisters treated me to good Korean BBQ and Hotpot, followed by Chocolate at Max Brenners. Catching up with one another is always good and the last time we ate together was at Cindy's place.




















Yummy Korean BBQ... cooked by the waitress in front of us...















The only pic I had of us... together with the Korean seafood soup.

Chocolate at Max was good. We all had a good time. Drinks and food were ordered and we just had a good time filling ourselves with goodies.















My Chocolate pizza with a crunch..















Amelia's Strawberry and Chocolate-dip















Cindy's Chocolate Souffle with ice-cream

We all left the place early. It was cold and we definitely did not want a repeat of what happened last time. Haha. Definitely a good time we had and am so looking forward to the next one at Sanctuary Cove. It would be good for them to finally meet my darling. *wink*

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She had been busy with her rehearsals and everything just seems never ending. Knowing dancing is her passion, I always try to give her my utmost support. Sometimes cannot help but wanna be greedy and hope to have more time with her. Oh well, as long as she is happy and healthy, thats most important. I don't ask for much. Well, another week down and soon she would be here. Hehe.

Week 11!

Blink of an eye, its already week 11 of the first semester. Time really flies. Just a couple weeks more and end of semester exams would be here. Autumn had descended on us and its fast approaching winter as I hardly recall Autumn ever being so cold. I would think we are at the end of Autumn and winter is just a few weeks away.

My ankle had been recovering well. So far, I had been able to do most of the stuff I wanted to do with no dramas. However, I think it still needs that 2 full weeks to recover before I can run. I tried running just now and resulted in hopping instead. Should recover by early June.

Had a fun Fri evening last week when ZZ, Mel, NBX and my darling were all on msn chatting at the same time! Its been a long time since we all got together even for us guys alone and it was the first time I actually got Fau to chat with them although she met them before. Hehe. Seems like no ice breakers needed next time I come back! Haha.

May Ee- Not that I want to steal mum away. I need to plan her trip for her so I need some details from her. Well, she is visiting you in a couple weeks time. I promise I will not disturb your precious time with her. You can have her from now on. Hehehe.

One month to exams. Mother's Day.

The title says it all. One more month to exams. About time to start mugging and concentrate on what matters most. Ankle is still recovering, slowly. Still unable to run but well, at least am able to walk normally. Another 3 weeks before it should fully recover, so should be more patient now anyway.

Been saving alot of money by cooking alot more at home and with decrease food intake, even I surprised myself. Not at the money saved but by how much food I had actually not been eating. Recently, been trying out new stuff like Nasi Goreng Seafood, Tom Yum noodles with lamb slices.















Nasi Goreng Seafood with sambal on the side..

For now, all seem clear and am looking forward to the Carbonara tonight. Intend to make enough to last a couple meals just so don't have to cook all the time. Came up with a study plan and intend to stick to it.

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Today is Mother's day. Called her to wish her. Kinda funny when she claims that I had forgotten her. Hmmm. Sigh. Jealousy of my mum is lethal. Sometimes just don't understand her. Women. Sigh. Can't live without them but can't live with more than one of them!

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Darling had been very understanding. Called to calm me down the night before as she knew I had a very bad evening with a stupid housemate with no brains. Guess she had not really seen nor heard me that mad before. Well, am looking forward to seeing her in 54 days. Will make it up to her when she arrives.

5 days long weekend.

As our results from the previous exam were released to us one at a time, many of us dreaded knowing them. Nevertheless, its something we have to know. Honestly, am disappointed with my results. Although compared to the rest of the cohort from my course I am above average, I expected better results from myself. I usually take it as a cue to work harder for the End Sem papers.

2 May - 6 May marks my long weekend. Its 5 days long with not much plans to begin with. I wasn't thinking too much of what to do as I was resigned to the fate of not seeing darling on most of it as she would be away. I actually dread this long weekend because of that. It was until on 1 May, after our final lecture on Fri arvo, when Jess and I had this conversation...

Jess (J) : So, what are your plans for this weekend? Study?

Me: No idea. Not sure what to do as she would not be free to webcam anyway.

J: You know, you got 5 days long and its only Fri arvo, you could go somewhere as well.

Me: Hmmm.. good point.. why didn't I think of that?!

I rushed home immediately, wanting to check the prices of the air tickets to Perth, Singapore and KL. Thoughts of me flying to KL or Sing made me smile non stop during my drive back home. I could go Perth to visit my parents who were there on a holiday, celebrating their silver anniversary. I could return back to Singapore and catch up with family and friends. Or I could even fly straight to KL to surprise my darling! Prices, as I found out were as follow..

Perth - $700.
Singapore - $650 via Jetstar
KL - $690 via AirAsia.

I was very tempted to book the flight to KL and then surprise her at her hotel room when I knock on her door. However on second thought, I decided not to. It was her chance to have her own time anyway and I don't think I should really interfere. As much as I miss her, its best I let her enjoy her short KL trip with her friends. I did not even consider flying to Perth as the price was just ridiculous. I would had considered flying back to SG but I would only get to see her for less than 24 hours as well, so it makes not much sense as well. Besides, my budget was not that high.

So there goes the brilliant plan of flying. Its Saturday midnight, going into Sunday. I got to say so far I had been keeping myself quite busy. Last night was yumcha with Matt, Liwei, Ken and Weeliam. Fun company and we were out til 2-3am.

Today was packed as well. Morning had to run some errands and catching up with friends. In fact, I just came home at 10.30pm. Am dead tired now. Its good that am keeping myself busy as well. Tomorrow should be continuation of the errands as its not even half settled. Might be spending alot of time on it from now on.

An interesting conversation I had with some friends just now.

Me: You know, I almost went back today. For $650 to SG or $690 to KL.

Friend (F): Har?! Come on mate. If you were to spend that much to fly back to see her for less than 48 hours, whats the point? You might as well save that money! Wait 2 more months and when she comes over, you can pass me the money and I can make you tonic soup everyday!

We just burst into laughter. Oh well, yes perhaps should save the money for future plans. Put it into my account and will need to use in over the next few years anyway. *grin*

Argh, I just hope time will fly faster and perhaps my friend can start preparing all the tonic soup that he mention for me! *cheeky grin* Hahaha... And oh.. did I mention, my friend is a trained-chef. Yummmm...

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Darling was sweet enough to leave me a couple online messages and a surprise email before she leave on Fri early morning. It kinda surprise me alot as I never expected her to do such things. *wink* Am looking forward to her return on Monday evening.