1 step closer, 10 weeks more.

Last weekend marked the end of the mid-semester exams. 2 papers on Fri afternoon and 'celebrations' started soon after paper finished. Beer at the Uni bar before dinner at Cindy's. Its one of those monthly dinners that I have with the 2 Sisters. They always take good care of me and had planned such monthly dinners just to catch up. Hehe.

The spread at Cindy's was unbelievable. I strongly believe that she prepared enough food for 10 when there were only 6 of us! 2 soup base and all so yummy! She spared no costs at all! So much food that I was asked to bring back a big portion as well. I was asked to bring a few friends and cordially invited Matt and Jeremy. Mahjong soon follows and we actually played 2 rounds! Haha. Played small and I was lucky to actually win $15. Overall, an enjoyable night with good food, nice company and good entertainment.















Half the spread... check out the size of those prawns..















The 3 ladies.. hostess Cindy (Ms SG).. Amelia (Ms Malaysia) and Mimi ( Ms HK)... haha..















The other half of the spread..

Weekend was spent largely at home resting as needed to rest my ankle and do some music editing for Monday's dance demonstration. My gf was away getting ready for her 2 performances in SG, so I kept myself occupied. Had late night supper and coffee on Sat night with both Aaron and Weeliam and tried staying up for her but I just crashed at 5am.

Monday was kinda bad with lessons from 8-5pm back to back with only an hour lunch break. Had our dance demonstration at 12noon in the sun as well. Kinda lucky that my group still came up tops once again, to add on to the top marks we got from 2 presentations. Hehe. Thankfully, my ankle survived the short demonstration and we got the marks we deserved.

Now with all mid-sem exams gone, its another 2 weeks before an exam on Clinical Ex Testing. Shall start studying early for it since darling would be away in KL this coming weekend. Haiz... Might as well keep myself occupied just so time will past by faster. On the bright side, 1 step closer to end of semester, 10 weeks to seeing my beloved once again. Hehe. *cheeky grin*

Popping in...

One and a half hour before 2 papers back to back, and can't believe I am actually typing this out. I agree with ZZ, exams kills. Thanks to Dree and ZZ for the encouragement. Hehe.

Haha. Anyway, just popping in to say I love you alot, my darling Fau! Haha. very sweet of her to call when I least expected. I know you are reading this... Hehe.

Awakening.

It is a slow weekend for me. The last few days of the mid-term break before we start the second half of this semester. I know I would not be seeing my gf much today and the next few weekends especially since she would be busy so I thought why not try to study as well. Besides, I cannot do anything nor go anywhere with my right ankle in the current condition. However, little did I realised I would be sitting on my bum at my desk, not studying but chatting with ZZ for the next few hours! What started off as a normal conversation slowly lead to more serious stuff. I am glad we had that conversation cause ZZ literally brought me back.

Recently, all that had happened had made my mind so clouded with things that I am no longer myself. I couldn't really think and was too bogged down with the short term goals that I kind of neglected my long term ones. I had been back for 2 months and all that had happened was bad news one by one.

-My little car got so thrashed that I actually contemplating selling it instead of doing the repairs. All of it due to the large amount of money I got to spend on repairs.

-My harddisk that crashed and with the loss of data, I was on the verge of buying a Mac on the spot. I had to keep calling HP, chasing for the replacement and see if they could help.

-My right ankle which caused me so much pain. Hoping around on crutches for 2 weeks, in contant pain. At least its alot better now and I hope to recover fully in 2 months.

I was in the pits. Physically, mentally drained. All I could think of was to finish the studies I started. No longer focused on the plans I used to have. So much so that alot of negative thoughts and worries begin to fill my mind. Questions like, "When will I ever be able to settle down? Am I the right person? Would I have enough money to fuel my plans? What else is there for me after this?"... etc, keep coming back at me. Might not seem much to you, but its a build-up of feelings I guess.

Its kind of funny how things work. This morning after Fau got to go for her training, my childhood friend, YK, sent me a song. The lyrics goes...

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, I wish that I could stay
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Till that day
Theres nothing else that I can do
And I just cant take it
I just cant take it

Somehow it brings back certain memories. Pleasant ones. But it also reminded me of how much I miss her. Not thinking too much of it, I started my chat with ZZ. Our lengthy conversation started with family well-being to reason of relationship, marriage and work. It wasn't much but it evoked a feeling deep down inside me. Its like something in me just woked up after all the gloom that had happened. All that he said, served as a reminder of what I had overlooked these 2 months.

I got to admit. I am in fact very happy to be with Fauziah. No doubt that I am unable to settle down now due to obvious reasons and being physically so far away, it just makes things harder. Although life might be hard but getting through it with a life partner, makes everything sweet. She has been persistent in wanting to wait for my return. Although I had given her the time frame of years, it was never definite. Even before everything, when we were still new, I had warned her of the tough times ahead. She made up her mind to wait. I know its tough for her. Its definitely not easy. To clear things up, I just want to say that I WILL come back one day, to take her away with me. Give me a few years after graduation. Let me earn enough. I aimed to settle down soon. I know its not much, but this is the best I can assure. I certainly hope we can work this relationship out together and enjoy the happy ending that we both desired.

For all that, I really want to thank ZZ for bringing me back on track. To look at the whole picture. To see how awesome she had been to me. To rediscover the drive that I seemed to have lost in life. For all that, Thank you Zhi Zhong.

Updates of ankle.

My right ankle had been recovering pretty well lately. I went for an X-ray on Tues and it was good news, except they found something else which shouldn't be there. Haha. Apparently, I have an additional bone at my ankle joint, which is not normal. Anyway back to the X-ray, no broken bones. Damn happy! Cause any broken bones, even a hairline fracture will mean my right ankle will be plastered and in a cast for 6 weeks minimum! However, the doctor did tell me that it will take me another week before I can walk without crutches again. Another month before I can start dancing, not that I had been dancing here. Another month from then before I can start running again.















When I first hurt my leg... see how swollen it is.. 18 needles needed..















All wrapped up to compact it, just so I can stabilise it better.

Now am hoping my ankle can recover enough by Monday so at least I can start driving again. This week of holiday is mainly used to rest and recover my ankle. Although I did have plans to go Brisbane but had to shelve it. However, I had been pretty fortunate amid the unfortunate events. I have a bunch of very good friends who had helped me in this time of need. Some drive me around, some cooked for me and even invited me over for dinner. In no particular order, I would like to thank them one by one.

Michael.
Thank you for helping me out when my previous harddisk crashed.
Solving and finding the neccessary softwares I need.

Mattthew.
Thank you for taking me to the TCM while cutting short your appt.
Driving me around, looking for crutches and even chauffeurring me to the TCM and back home.
Thanks for the beehoon!
Thank you for taking up alot of your time when you had things to do on your own.

Michelle.
Thank you for taking me home from Uni after a busy day at work.
It was nice having you to cook for me last weekend and really appreciate all that!
At least a break from the food I had been taking.

Jess.
Thank you for taking me to the Doc and back.
For staying with me while I received treatment.
Thank you once again for picking me up from home to your place for dinner and driving me back after that.
Really appreciate all that!

Beatrice, Amy, Estee and Althea.
Thank you for picking me up for dinner even though you know I could barely walk.
For cooking and washing up.

Thomas.
Thank you so much my good friend.
I will never forget how you piggyback me down the slope off my house in the morning and back up in the evening!
For being ever so thoughtful and taking me to the Doc this morning.

Amelia.
Thank you for entertaining my requests of photocopying my receipts.
Haha. I know you were busy and didn't mean to disturb but I did not know who else to approach.
Thank you so much.

William.
Thank you for coming by my place on 2 nights to chat.
It was great having you around to talk over fruit and biscuits and we definitely got to know each other alot better ever since.

If I had left anyone else out, kindly please forgive me as its not done on purpose. Now another weekend for me to stay home and let my right ankle recover.

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Remember I mentioned that my darling gave me a pillow case as a farewell gift? She had one for herself as well.









The one on the left is hers and the other is mine. Haha. How matching!! Very sweet of her! Thank you darling! I will be careful and take care of my ankle~ Thanks for the care and concern!

Things come in 3s...

As mentioned in my previous post, first car, then laptop. I was hoping that its the end of things until I fell and twisted my ankle badly on Tuesday. I was shocked when it happened because I literally saw my right ankle rolled the other way. After the moment of shock, came the excruciating pain.

I know I needed to see a doc the next day but there's no one to take me to one on Wed morning. Darling was pretty worried and lucky she was understanding enough that its not I don't want to see a doctor but there were a couple other reasons as well. Thankfully, Matt came to pick me up to see a TCM in the late arvo. The acupuncturist poked 18 needles into my right ankle. There was major swelling and Matt even took a picture of it. After treatment, he drove me to a couple pharmacists and I managed to get an elastic bandage and a pair of crutches as instructed by the TCM. Thankfully Matt was there to help me out, if not I think I would be in greater pain than now.

Yesterday, Tom actually came over to my place to pick me up to go Uni. He actually piggybacked me down the slope of my place and back up in the evening when he sent me home! Jess helped by taking me to the TCM once again for my 2nd appt in the arvo and thankfully, its alot better. However, I still need to schedule an X-ray on Tues after the 4 days long weekend to make sure no bones were fractured.

Using crutches is no joke. I had to use them to travel around 400 metres in Uni yesterday and I had to make a stop in between as it was too tiring. It doesn't help with the weather drizzling as well. This morning when I woke up, the mid and lower trapezius muscles on my back were sore coupled with both arms as well.

Since I am in crutches, immobilised, I am spending my long weekend at home. How exciting~ While others are out partying, dancing, drinking away, I had to spend this time resting, elevating my right ankle every now and then. Argh. Oh well, no other choice as if I were back in SG, I would love to attend En La Pasion at Zouk tonight.

Last night, I actually teared watching a movie. Its called- If Only. Its about how a guy used to take his gf for granted. Then she dies in an accident right after she poured out her feelings for him and decided to break up. He cried himself to sleep and woke up re-living the same day yesterday. He did whatever he could and right to the time when she died, he protected her, sacrificing himself in the process. Very touching movie. It doesn't help with the soundtrack being very nice as well. Perhaps am turning into a softie.. Lol..

First the car... Now laptop..

Damn it. I came back and in a month, I spent close to $1800 on car repairs. And just yesterday, my laptop decided to die on me. So as it floats to the Pearly Gates while the technician tried to recover my lost data, I was asked to call HP to see if they could do me a favour instead.

Well, my laptop warranty expired 5-6 days before it crashed. So I called them and plead my case. They asked me to fax the invopice. I faxed it 3 FRIGGING TIMES!! yET, THEY TOLD ME THEY DID NOT RECEIVE IT BUT GIVE IT A COUPLE HOURS AS FAX MACHINE IS BUSY...

What kinda bull is that?! Now while the techinicians are still fixing it up, I was advised to wait for HP's reply. If it could save me $100-$150 in repairs, why not. However, that would mean I would be without a laptop for more than a week. That means a week of no webcam and contact with outside world when I am home.

ARGH......

Damn it man... I hate to rely so much on my laptop.. but sometimes.. we just cannot help it, or can we?